Have you ever heard the voice of God?
Have you ever heard the voice of God laugh and call you an idiot (in the best way, not in a mean way)? I have. More so than I'd like to admit.
So, last night, after the election, I am not ashamed to say, I cried. I cried for all of the unborn who are going to die. My faith is not a just a big part of who I am. At my core, it IS who I am. I believe (and you are absolutely free to believe otherwise, it doesn't mean I won't love you or that we cannot be friends) that life is from conception to natural death. No exceptions. Now, being Catholic and going to Mass you would think that everyone who shares my faith would feel the same. However, that is not the case.
My first thought this morning was 'how can that person receive communion every Sunday and still vote like they did?' This is where the voice of God came in. He just whispered and reminded me that every Sunday, I receive communion too. And, just because I cast my vote for life doesn't mean I do not sin. Just because someone sins differently does not make me any better. Then, I thought of the scripture 'let those without sin cast the first stone'. I guess that's why I have receipts and pens and napkins and keys in my purse instead of rocks. And, believe you me, I am very thankful that those around me (and those with great aim) do not carry rocks around either. I would be hit all day!
It's no surprise I've been under a ton of stress lately. Today marks week four of my pt. House stuff, kid stuff, pmsing, work crap, other work crap. All this stress makes it very, very easy to be filled with hate. I start most days thinking 'I'm going to pray for those who annoy me. I will be kind, I will be the face of Jesus to them when they irk me'. But then, I'm at work and it's so easy to get sucked in to the vortex that is gossip and so and so isn't pulling their weight and the hate rises up and I become a minion of satan showing others evil instead of a disciple of Christ showing others Jesus. Then, I get more mad at myself and then get down on myself. I am better than this! I can do this! Why do I constantly go into the vortex and get sucked in to all the drama!? Because, I am human. I can almost guarantee you that if I knew it all, if my faith was so great and I showed Jesus to those that torque me off everyday then I would not be here. I would be in heaven with my Mema and George's Mom both whom I miss with every beat of my heart. I would be praising WITH the angels instead of praying to them for aid.
So, what is a struggling girl to do? Keep praying. I saw a sign on facebook the other day that I just love. Faith-forwarding it all to heaven. I just have to remember, it's not the church of Gina, or Gina's North America, or Gina's world. Sure, the skies would be a brilliant pink/orange hue and everyone would wear mismatched socks (because life is too short to wear matching socks!) and there would be singing and dancing a lot. I would also be like the evil queen who yells "OFF WITH THEIR HEADS!!!" And, that is just not good for anyone. So, be thankful that you don't live in Gina's world, remember, like me, we are all sinners, and God loves us regardless of who we vote for or how we sin. It's still sin and His love still remains greater than any of it.
Until next time,
Have a blessed day and GO ALLEN EAGLES!