Tuesday, July 21, 2009


The word H E L L O means:
H=How are you?
E= Everything all right?
L= Like to hear from you
L= Love to see you soon!
O=Obviously, You are my friend...

May today there be peace within you. May
you trust God that you are exactly where you are
meant to be.

"I believe that friends are quiet angels
who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how
to fly."
I hope you are drinking from your saucer

I've never made a fortune,
and it's probably too late now.
But I don't worry about that much,
I'm happy anyhow
and I go along life's way,
I'm reaping better than I sowed.
I'm drinking from my saucer,
'Cause my cup has overflowed.
Haven't got a lot of riches,
and sometimes the going's tough
But I've got loving ones all around me,
and that makes me rich enough.

I thank God for his blessings,
and the mercies He's bestowed.
I'm drinking from my saucer,
'Cause my cup has overflowed.

I remember times when things went wrong,
My faith wore somewhat thin.
But all at once the dark clouds broke,
and the sun peeped through again.
So Lord, help me not to gripe,
about the tough rows I have hoed.
I'm drinking from my saucer,
Cause my cup has overflowed.

If God gives me strength and courage,
When the way grows steep and rough.
I'll not ask for other blessings,
I'm already blessed enough.
And may I never be too busy,
to help others bear their loads.
Then I'll keep drinking from my saucer,
'Cause my cup has overflowed.

When I think of how many people in this
world have it worse than I do, I realize just how blessed we
really are.

Love never gives up,
never loses faith,
is always hopeful,
and endures.

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

The OCD in me

Number of days since Father Antony left - 20
Number of emails mentioning Father Antony - 36
Number of blogs about Father Antony since he left -4 (not including this one)
Number of tears cried - immeasurable.

Days till he returns 1806.

Just thought I'd update those of you who think I am obsessed. And to you I say "how long have you known me? lol"

Today is going to be a good day. I am convinced of this. I plan on going to adoration (always a good thing) and going to my study group. I am off work today (my one day this week). And, I'm going to spend the evening with my family. Anything else that comes my way is a bonus.

Carolina-I've decided that roses are more beautiful without the blooms.

Carol - Are you ever coming home? I miss you! We need to have your bday dinner!

Jules - From one teacup to another "OWWWWWWWWWWWW"

Mary Branson - Hurry home. I miss you and your smile. Every email, I can hear your soft voice telling me it's going to be okay. I'm working on the "joy" thing. Some days are better than others, but I'm working on it! You'd be proud!

Jeanne-Thank you for loving me. You have no idea how much I need you.

Tina - I'm switching flavors. Ben and Jerry's is way better anyways.

Tammy - your out of office replies let me know you're alive. That and that I want to go on a vacation with you :)

Peter - for being my rock. Hey, if he can be a good enough rock for Jesus, he's good enough for me!

Sharon, my cheerleader, my lifeline to all things burg related. Hurry home! Guess Jules and I will just have to pray harder!

George-b/c you continue to stay and love me.

I love you all.

Until next time,
Have a 'happy welcome to St. Jude' day!

Friday, July 3, 2009

Good Riddance

I have a soundtrack to my life. I also have videos. All in my head of course. Have you ever watched a movie and there's a couple remembering something, maybe them walking the beach having a great time and music is playing in the background? I use to wish I could afford to have someone follow me with a video camera and video all the great times I have (which would be a ton) and put music to them, so when I am older, I can watch and remember what a great time I had. Alas, I could not afford such a luxury. So, I have my overactive imagination to keep me company.

My soundtrack consists of music at certain points in my life. Big moments, small moments. There's my wedding song "I could not ask for more". There's the song we used to sing to my grandpa "the candyman" b/c he used to bring us candy all the time. There's "sisters" which I sang with my Carol at the coffeehouse. There's my theme song (it's an Ally Mcbeal thing) which changes all the time. So far it's been 'brown eyed girl', 'make your own kind of music' and 'the world should revolve around me'. Currently, I am themesongless. There's the song I always sing to the girls when they can't sleep "I don't want to live on the moon" and "baby mine". There's the songs I've sang to my children when they were born, "my Maria" and later 'how do you solve a problem like Maria'. "Sarah Smile" "Amazing Grace", "sweet baby James", and "my name is James". And, there's "never alone' which I sing to remind me that mom is always here. And, as of late, there is "Good Riddance" which reminds me of Fr. Antony. I promise you it is a beautiful song by Green Day and nothing horrible as the title might lead you to believe. And there's a myriad of other songs. Hey, I've been here almost 40 years and I love music. I've got a lot of songs! lol

I also have video. I play little montages in my head. This is to the thanks of Grace. After mom died (may she rest in peace) Grace asked me if knowing I would feel all this pain and anguish, and I had the chance to do it over again, would I choose to love her. I of course said 'yes'. And, I go back and I play little videos in my head of my time together with mom. I do it with scenes from my childhood. Times with my Carol and now Fr. Antony. Sometimes, it is a little painful to remember, especially in the case of Fr. Antony when it is so fresh. But most of the time, it makes me smile. It makes me smile in happiness. That I brought someone else joy (MARY BRANSON, I MISS YOU TONS), and love. But, selfishly it helps me remember the love we share. And, in time it will get easier. I remember when Sharon moved back to PA. I remember she told me a few days before Holy Thursday. Then, there we were at Holy Thursday Mass. I was sitting in the main isle on the left. She was on the Mary side. We both were crying. Not just because she was leaving, but b/c the mass was amazing, lol. I didn't know what I was going to do without her! Would I forget her? Would she forget me? Would our friendship fizzle? I am proud to say none of those things happened. Quite the opposite actually. Our friendship has strengthened. We email and she is still one of my biggest cheerleaders! So, eventually, the pain of Fr. Antony leaving will diminish and life will continue.

The path that I am walking (ugh, more walking!) , the one that God leads me on, I do not have to walk alone. Ever. Yes, He is with me. But also, all of you (as I walk with all of you). And, that makes the walk bearable. Thank you.

Until next time,
have some tea in a screaming teacup and play some of your memories. I can't wait for Alzheimer's to hit, it's like meeting new people everyday!


PS. go to the blog (for those of you who get this emailed) www.chrpangel.blogspot.com to see the video.

Good Riddance

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