Friday, January 13, 2012

Don't pick up the phone


Double arg.

So, I've actually made some resolutions this year.  And, I've been working on them too.  One of them was to actually start taking a multi-vitamin.  I have noticed subtle changes.  I'm feeling better (also eating better) much happier.  I even commented to my one friend at work how I have been so blissfully happy lately.  I figured I could so get used to this!  I can definitely handle anything that came my way.  Then I got home.  My cell phone rang.  It was my manager.  Apparently, a parent has an issue that I need to deal with today.  Why do I have to be involved?  Seriously, the don't pay us enough for what we do let alone deal with this.  So, I was bummed most of the night.  Which sucked royally. 

Last night was bunco, my favorite time of the month.  I always am happy there.  I can say anything and it's okay.  We always laugh and have a great time, even on the times when I don't feel like going.  Last night, I really didn't want to go but I figured I'd have fun.  That did not happen.  While it was nice, it just wasn't my happy.  While we did talk and laugh, it just wasn't my night.  I guess I was just still bummed over the whole work thing.  It got me wondering, what would've happened if I didn't pick up the phone?

Then, this morning I got to thinking.  Dangerous, I know.  Why is it so easy for me to be there for my friends and support them.  Tell them seriously to pray and how they are covered and this too shall pass, yet when it comes to myself just wallow?  I mean, I called on Mary and she came swiftly.  I know things can't be blissfully happy all the time.  Yes, I know the devil is always going to try and attack me (and truth be told, I'd rather he attack me than someone else.  He's never going to get me so let him struggle in vain versus someone whose faith is not so strong) I just wish...I don't know.  I wish life would just be easy sometimes.  I know, I know.  He never said it would be easy.  He said that it would be worth it. 

So, I am determined (more like halfheartedly trying) to get through the day with a smile and not have all this stress totally drag me down.

Until next time,
Pray for a dear friend of mine whose mom passed away.


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