U2 wasn't kidding when they sang "devil inside, the devil inside, every single one of us have the devil inside". I have seen the devil, sometimes on a daily basis, mostly at work, but sometimes in the mirror. By the way, he says 'hi'.
You know, I was thinking of everything I wanted to say yesterday after I wrote the above. So much happens in my day that I want to share then, when I go fingers to keyboard, most of the times, I go blank. So I let the aforementioned sit. Then, last night, I dreamed I was having a conversation with the devil. No, not people who sometimes I think are the devil incarnate, but the actual devil himself. He didn't look the like devil we see in movies. And, in the light of day, I can't recall what he looked liked. But I can tell you what it felt like to have a conversation with the devil. It was truly, without a doubt, not that interesting. There was no fire and brimstone. No magic ring of fire. Just talking. How I reacted to it, how I felt about it all....was very surprising to me. It was just like everyday life. I was trying to accomplish a goal (shopping I think) and he kept thwarting my efforts at every turn (just like in real life). More than anything, he was an annoyance. Just like real life. So what did I learn with my conversation with the devil? I learned that when confronted with absolute evil, I'm still going to be okay. That even when I joke how I have reservations in hell, my future is cemented in heaven. There's something freeing in that. No, I'm not perfect, far from it. And sure, the devil is going to always try and attack me. And, truth be told it takes a while for me sometimes to realize he's the one stirring the pot. And I eventually catch on. I don't have to catch on at the beginning, just as long as I catch on. And, sure, I get scared and sometimes, he really scares me good. But in the end it's not that scary. Just a man behind the curtain.
So what do I do with all this wise information? Not a clue. I know that my future is cemented in happiness and love and in the end, love is all the matters.
Until next time,
What scares you?