Happy Birthday!

For those of us who have lost a love one, some days it feels like yesterday and others it feels like a lifetime.  I wonder if that's what heaven is like, when a thousand years is like one day and one day is like a thousand years.  I woke up excited this morning as tomorrow is my daughters 22nd birthday.  Then, it dawned on me.  I confirmed with Big Daddy, today is Mom' birthday.  Not just that, but it's her tenth birthday in heaven.  I miss my Mother-in-love more than I can explain. 

I miss talking with her every week.
I miss hearing her voice.
I miss making her laugh.  I think I miss that one most of all.
She was so easy to make laugh.  Not one of those 'I'm humoring you' laugh', but an honest-to-goodness laugh. 

My time with her was so very short, only 9 years.  That's not a lot of time.  I was lamenting to Big Daddy this morning on how much I have missed out with her.  How many hugs.  How many conversations.  How many laughs?  What would our relationship be like now?  She genuinely liked me.  Loved me.  Not because I was her daughter-in-love, not because I gave her three grandchildren, but because of who I am.  Just me.  Perfectly imperfect me.  This is a huge deal for me, because when you grow up with one of the people who is suppose to love you unconditionally, doesn't, it's surprising when people actually do.  When you grow up with that deficit, it causes you to think that people only like you because you're friends with so-and-so, not because you're your own amazingly, wonderfully, eccentric self.  Mom did that for me.  She loved me warts and all.  She (and Dad) accepted a low self-esteem, domestic abuse survivor, with three tiny children with open arms.  She (aside from my own amazing Mom and Mema) is one of the greatest women I have had the blessing of knowing.

Happy birthday, Mom.  Have a great day and share a birthday shot with Jesus for me.  I love you and miss you!

Until next time,
Let's go EAGLES!

Love,
Me

One down, 51 to go!

The first week of the new year is complete.  I worked on getting better (and by worked, I mean, took my medicine, went to work, and slept) and kept a few of my goals that I set for myself!  The great thing about life is I have 24 hours everyday to try it again!

Flossed daily?  Nope, but I used my water pic once!
Extra time for prayer?  Once.
Got up earlier?  Nope.
Went to bed earlier?  Nope.
Ate better?  Yes!  I made conscience decisions about what I was putting in my body.  Don't freak out, it's not like I'm all "Kale is life!" It was more, "Peanuts are a better choice than potato chips". 
No drama?  Yes!
Stay positive?  Not as much as I hoped, but better than none at all. 
Avoid negativity?  Mostly!  I removed negative people and content from my social media as much as I could (stuff pops up every now and again).
Be kinder to myself?  Nope.  But, I wasn't as negative to myself as I usually am.

But, like one of my favorite sayings go "If you don't like where you are, move, you are not a tree."  I am not a tree.  So, like I said, every day is a new chance!  So, that's what I plan on doing :)

What is working for me this week?  I'm feeling wonderful, minus the getting better part from being sick.  My energy level normal thanks to thriving!  Like I said before, I cannot imagine how worse my cold would have been if I wasn't thriving!  And, I'm so exited for what the year is going to bring!  Each day is so full of love and promise!

So, I sit here this morning, watching one of my favorite bad Christmas movies (the 12 dates of Christmas), enjoying the smell of my Christmas tree, enjoying the quiet time, enjoying my life.  If I could give you all one present this week, it would be to realize you are enough.  You are lovely just the way you are, warts and all.  Remember, you are amazing!

Until next time,
Give someone a smile.  Yours is amazing!

Love,
Me

Happy New Year!

I started 2018 by bringing with me some things from 2017.  Namely, my grit, spunk, determination, and good Lord help me, this cough! lol

Today has been a lovely day!  I've enjoyed so much.  I chatted with my mom, my sister, and my daughters.  I spent a bunch of time with Big Daddy, and the only side effect from the new medicine is being light headed now and again.  Trust me, that's a lot better than the side effects from the other medicine!  I've officially been sick a week.  I was at work last Tuesday and at the end of the day, was working some overtime at home.  I finally clocked out at 7 because I was spent.  Then, an hour later, my fever spiked to 102.8.  And, that my friends is when I called in to work.  For two days, I slept, fought the side effects of the wrong meds, and hardly ate, although I drank water like a camel. lol  Since Friday, when I started better medicine, I still slept, but my appetite has slowly returned.  And, I'm feeling better.  Big Daddy says I have my color back!  On the plus side, I lost 3 pounds! Hey, I'll take it!

I spent the day today getting crap off my facebook feed.  There's was so much negativity that I just unsubscribed to it all.  That's not me and I don't need to see any negativity.  Oh, I know it exists, mind you.  I just don't need to be party to it.

Now, I'm just about ready for work tomorrow.  Truth be told, I really loved my time off, even though I've been so sick and sleeping tons.  But, I am ready.  I'm ready to face the day, week, month, year.  Let's do this!

Happy New Year, everyone!

Until next time,

I pray you all have a blessed year!

Love,

Me